Don't be shy...

Tuesday, 13 August 2013 |

Hi!
 
Now I don't write many personal posts, I think that if I started I would never stop as there is so much going on in my life.
 
One thing that has been playing on my mind though is going to Plus North, I am super excited to go as I have never been to anything like it before and I'm also keen to see what Manchester is like as I have never been there.
 
One thing that is making me anxious is meeting everyone, you see I suffer from crippling shyness, the sort that renders me speechless when I meet new people and leaves me feeling so angry at myself.
 
I have been like this ever since I was little, I had friends at school but it took me a long time to get to know them and the thought of moving up to secondary school and having new class mates used to make my heart beat so fast I used to think it would pop out of my chest!
 
Whenever I first start a job I'm always so quiet, I find it very difficult to let the 'real me' shine through, afraid of what people will say or think about me. I know that people have said that because I'm quiet I can be thought of as being rude or snobbish, far from the truth actually I would love to chat and be myself from day one but the shyness always wins unfortunately.
 
I also used to hate shopping, I recall one episode when I went with a friend to buy some new shoes and I got so panicked about asking the assistant for my size she had to do it for me, I was mortified.
 
I spend every day hoping that I will grow out of it one day but I'm not sure if I ever will.
 
So going to Plus North will be a big test for me, I'm going to try to talk to as many people as I can and hopefully gain some confidence! If you do see me and I don't say much I just wanted to write this post so that you know why!

Much Love

N
x

2 comments

  1. I'm excited but anxious too! I'm a really nervous person and get myself all worked up until I feel so sick!
    I honestly can't wait for Plus North but I worry I won't come across the way I want too because of nerves.
    Saying that though, I'm sure everyone will be as lovely in real life as they are when we chat to them online.
    I've agreed to take part in the Scarlett & Jo blogger catwalk in the evening and I think I might poo myself.
    NO PRESSURE!!

    We'll be fine :) xx

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  2. I can understand being nervous like you. I am modelling during the day and am quietly terrified that I am going to make a fool of myself and fall over or something. I think there are a lot of people are who nervous when first meeting people, myself included, but we are all here to support each other and enjoy Plus North so am sure we will all be fine. Come and say hi if you see me! xx

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