Don't be shy...
Now I don't write many personal posts, I think that if I started I would never stop as there is so much going on in my life.
One thing that has been playing on my mind though is going to Plus North, I am super excited to go as I have never been to anything like it before and I'm also keen to see what Manchester is like as I have never been there.
One thing that is making me anxious is meeting everyone, you see I suffer from crippling shyness, the sort that renders me speechless when I meet new people and leaves me feeling so angry at myself.
I have been like this ever since I was little, I had friends at school but it took me a long time to get to know them and the thought of moving up to secondary school and having new class mates used to make my heart beat so fast I used to think it would pop out of my chest!
Whenever I first start a job I'm always so quiet, I find it very difficult to let the 'real me' shine through, afraid of what people will say or think about me. I know that people have said that because I'm quiet I can be thought of as being rude or snobbish, far from the truth actually I would love to chat and be myself from day one but the shyness always wins unfortunately.
I also used to hate shopping, I recall one episode when I went with a friend to buy some new shoes and I got so panicked about asking the assistant for my size she had to do it for me, I was mortified.
I spend every day hoping that I will grow out of it one day but I'm not sure if I ever will.
So going to Plus North will be a big test for me, I'm going to try to talk to as many people as I can and hopefully gain some confidence! If you do see me and I don't say much I just wanted to write this post so that you know why!