Lifestyle | That forgotten feeling
Stress, its an easy word to use right? In my twenties the things that 'stressed' me out were finding the perfect outfit for a night out, who wanted to go out at the weekend, finding a boyfriend, simple things hey! But, what about when you really suffer from Stress.
To me it feels like it's one of those things that is rarely spoken about but, it should be. It's not classed as an illness but it can cause serious illnesses such as heart disease, asthma, stroke and diabetes if it isn't under control.
It took one particularly bad week, that I ended up in the doctors sobbing my heart out, to realise that I really was stressed. Not just a little bit, but a lot and it was affecting my health. Months of not sleeping and waking up in the middle of night with a racing heart, not being able to catch my breath, constant headaches, tightness in my chest and dizziness all began to take its toll. Stress induced panic attacks, scary right? I can tell you it most certainly is, every time I had one at night I was certain that I was dying.
My GP was excellent, she let me ramble on and tell her what was going on in life and why I felt like this. I walked away with a prescription and feeling literally like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. The results weren't instant though, I'm still trying to get back to my usual self. I still have a long way to go. It made me realise though that I had forgotten about me, I had stopped doing all the things I enjoyed like blogging, gardening, reading and generally having fun. Sometimes you have to be a bit selfish in order to look after yourself. I've made myself small targets each week whether it's having a nice long bath, doing my nails, doing a spot of gardening or forgetting about housework for a day and just reading and having fun with Mr C. Today as I'm tying this I'm at home sick, sometimes the anxiety is so bad it makes me physically ill. But I listened to what my body needed, rest and chill out time, hence writing this super long post! I also listened to a Podcast for the first time!
So, if you are feeling stressed, depressed or anxious please don't be afraid to go and see your doctor. I know a lot of people think that they are wasting their time doing this but don't, there is no shame in having to take tablets or seeing a counsellor, help is there if you need it. And, remember you are not alone, there are many, many people also going through the same thing as well. Look after yourself.
I've added a few pictures from my recent weekend away to Darlington to see my best friend. We laughed, talked, shopped and ate the best ice cream ever! It was really what both Mr C and I needed!